Graphology
I told myself today, that I need to start writing again.
I went to the EPF department yesterday, and was outraged by the service I got. They’ve implemented new self service kiosks, with big taglines on every touch-screen. ‘You are our priority’, it says. 7 out of 10 times, the kiosks did not work and none of the customer service representatives noticed the problem. The customer service counter is next to the self service, you are our priority, kiosks.
Then I read something in the papers that pissed me off. And then I read some more, got pissed some more, and read on and got pissed even more.
The old me is back. The fiery one. And gosh, I miss that woman.
I believe in horoscopes, feng shui, numerology, crystals, signs and graphology. I believe in dreams, in fate, in karma and variables in life. ‘A British friend calls it the hocus-pocus, there goes the Chinese girl again.’
Well, call it what you want. I draw a line between faith and confidence, and in all things I mentioned above, feng shui, horoscopes….. I have confidence that these are things that affect our lives.
2 years ago, I went to the bank to withdraw money from a fixed deposit account only, only to find that mysteriously, my signature has changed. The g turned into a G. The line that cuts across the name disappeared. The signature now slants upwards, but ends with a dot.
The dot seems insignificant. Hocus pocus.
A wider signature, like the now capital G, is good. It shows that the mind has broadened. The line that used to cut across the name was a sign of insecurity. It’s gone now, replaced by full stop. That dot concerned me the most. There’s a upward slant, a sign of ambition and dream. And then, dot. A full stop, a censor, a limit, a stop.
We all do that. We draw stops to our full potential. There are always possibilities for failure, things to take care of, mouths to feed, expectations to meet, fear.
‘We should never regret choices we’ve made’, my boss tells me.
‘Don’t worry, you are doing what you should be doing’, that’s what my colleagues tell me.
‘That’s normal, we aren’t there yet’, my friends tell me.
But my old fiery self reminds me, ‘You can do better than this’.
I agree, we should never regret choices we’ve made. That is why it’s important that we choose wisely at every juncture that we come to.
However, it is even more important to realize if and when you’ve taken a wrong turn, and then get your ass back on track.
I went to the EPF department yesterday, and was outraged by the service I got. They’ve implemented new self service kiosks, with big taglines on every touch-screen. ‘You are our priority’, it says. 7 out of 10 times, the kiosks did not work and none of the customer service representatives noticed the problem. The customer service counter is next to the self service, you are our priority, kiosks.
Then I read something in the papers that pissed me off. And then I read some more, got pissed some more, and read on and got pissed even more.
The old me is back. The fiery one. And gosh, I miss that woman.
I believe in horoscopes, feng shui, numerology, crystals, signs and graphology. I believe in dreams, in fate, in karma and variables in life. ‘A British friend calls it the hocus-pocus, there goes the Chinese girl again.’
Well, call it what you want. I draw a line between faith and confidence, and in all things I mentioned above, feng shui, horoscopes….. I have confidence that these are things that affect our lives.
2 years ago, I went to the bank to withdraw money from a fixed deposit account only, only to find that mysteriously, my signature has changed. The g turned into a G. The line that cuts across the name disappeared. The signature now slants upwards, but ends with a dot.
The dot seems insignificant. Hocus pocus.
A wider signature, like the now capital G, is good. It shows that the mind has broadened. The line that used to cut across the name was a sign of insecurity. It’s gone now, replaced by full stop. That dot concerned me the most. There’s a upward slant, a sign of ambition and dream. And then, dot. A full stop, a censor, a limit, a stop.
We all do that. We draw stops to our full potential. There are always possibilities for failure, things to take care of, mouths to feed, expectations to meet, fear.
‘We should never regret choices we’ve made’, my boss tells me.
‘Don’t worry, you are doing what you should be doing’, that’s what my colleagues tell me.
‘That’s normal, we aren’t there yet’, my friends tell me.
But my old fiery self reminds me, ‘You can do better than this’.
I agree, we should never regret choices we’ve made. That is why it’s important that we choose wisely at every juncture that we come to.
However, it is even more important to realize if and when you’ve taken a wrong turn, and then get your ass back on track.
posted by Shu @ 4:30 AM
1 Comments:
At 6:25 PM,
Fei said…
i feel exactly the same.
its as if, yes we do have a professional life, but im sure there's more to it,
many think it is perfectly fine that we are where we are, comfort zone, yes, we want to go further, something more to this, maybe for better or worse, im not sure, but more, get out of this comfort zone, its of cos easier said than done, but we'll never know how we cope unless we tried.
here's a simple practice that many of us may not actually practice, try closing ur eyes for a full moment, empty your thoughts and zoom back and focus to what you are going to achieve today, tomorrow, this weekend, as this expands, you will see yourself WANTING to achieve something in 6 months, 1 year, 3 years and 5 years down the road, believe me, it might scare the hell out of you such big dreams you have, but truth is, we all need this in life, because we need to progress and we can.
i maybe sitting in the office right now, but i choose to be productive as i could be.
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