Collin's wisdom

One of my favourite Pride and Prejudice chapters must be the part when Mr Collins proposes to Elizabeth - Collins professing the 'violence of his affections'.

I have heard many different views on love and relationships.

A good friend cites that love is a process of being shaped, and a relationship is how much you allow yourself to be shaped.

My friend's father says that relationships has got everything to do with 'yuen fen'. Fate.
He says that when 2 people are meant to be together, everything happens so fast that you really don't know when or how it all started.

Another interesting take on love - an old Jewish couple (who survived the Holoucast) my friends met in Prague said that in times of war and desperation, you don't have anything else. All you have is love and each other.

So what is it?
Is it companionship?
Is it a fullfillment of needs?
Or is it all of the above- companionship, being shaped, fate, a fullfillment of needs?
Where does 'violence of affection' come in?
Does it even come into the picture?

One of my favourite movies is 'Walk the Line'. I remember the scene where June Carter and her parents pointed a shotgun at the drug dealer to stop him from giving Johnny any more drugs. I also remember the scene where Johnny Cash proposed while singing on stage.
' June,' he says, 'I've asked you 25 different times but I have just got to ask you again...'

I am a sentimental fool. I want that!

I want somebody who would fight for me.
I want somebody who would fight for me, fight me and fight with me.
Blame it on Judith McNaught and Nora Roberts, but I believe that when you love someone,
you fight for it. You'd go against the odds. You don't take no for an answer because you know you deserve more. You'd want more. You'd take risks. You'll fight with each other because you'd want the other person to be all that he/she can be.

You won't be able to supress your affections. Everytime you (try to)push it away, it comes back and bites you in the ass. That's the 'violence of affections' I want.

I've tried.
I've tried compromising, but sub-standard is just not my style.

Return

Hi. i am back. Sorry for the long absense.

The past few months have been a trial for me. I really don't want to go into detail (because it'll be a very long story) but here's a summary of what has happened.

1. I passed my TOPCIMA, the last paper of the CIMA qualification. This means that when I fulfill the criterions for the working experience, I will be a qualified management accountant.

2. My aunt was diagnosed with cervical cancer and my uncle (her husband) had first stage kidney failure and a serious problem with kidney stones. They are both well now, my aunt had an operation to remove her cervix and womb, my uncle is closely monitored and is much better now. =)

3. I moved into my new place and am now still adjusting to living on my own (Love it!), waking up earlier to go to work and managing the finances and responsibilities of a house. I am putting some finishing touches to the house, so its still not quite complete!

4.There is finally(!!!) a new good looking chemist in my company. Rendevous in the laboratory after work seems a little more feasible now.

I am well. Happy and looking forward to what's ahead of me. I have finally learned how to manage my problems, finally found my passions, finally able to listen to my gut and fight for things that I want and care about. Nope, no man in my life. Just me.

Aye. I am happy now, happier than i have been for a long time.